Bonds of Motherhood

I think I felt Bun move! I'm not totally sure, but it wasn't quite the same as indigestion or gas or anything else I can think of. It was just…a little tickle; I guess that's how I'd describe it. I felt it a couple times, that's all. I was so excited.

I told my pregnant colleagues about all the worries; things I went through when I was pregnant with Alec and Ashley – I felt sick as a dog whenever I remember their falls - and advice for raising a child. It was so reassuring to find out that other moms felt the same anxieties as I've felt, and that they made a ton of mistakes with their first newborn.

I even told them that story when Ashley was a baby, I placed her in her walker while i was preparing breakfast, just for a second while I grabbed a box off the top shelf. I suddenly heard her cry and turned around to find that she had disappeared into thin air.

I nearly had a heart attack when I realized that she scooted down the stairs and had fallen off onto the floor. Angel saved her. She was fine, just scared, but I felt like the world's worst mother and cried for days after. I suppose that's- mom's rookie mistakes and accidents. This story is not i'm very proud sharing with other people...but it also serves as precautions to all moms or yaya's out there.

Sweet Dreams

I could barely keep my eyes open. And I spent hours the day after going over the work I'd done, catching a million mistakes made in my sleepy daze. How am I going to maintain this pace for the next several months? I'm starting to reconsider my goal of working until I go into labor or my doctor tells me to stop.

But I know I'll go insane if I sit around the house, waiting for this baby to be born. Talk about a watched pot never boiling! Those were the things I hate during my pregnancies with Alec and Ashley….such a big bum

I don't know if it's the sleep deprivation or hormones, but I have been having the most bizarre and vivid dreams every night. I don't usually remember my dreams after waking up, but the other night I had a dream that my Bun is a girl! Well, the dream started with that revelation, but quickly veered off course. I had just delivered her, and was so excited to see her face finally.

Speaking of my little Bun's sex, my first ultrasound is in a couple of weeks. (I'm dying to know if it’s a boy or not!!).